Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Reflections

It has been almost 4 years since I last wrote in my blog. Partially due to the intervention of Facebook and other social media which has robbed me of the time to do so.

I shared with my cell group last week on the power of reflections. I felt that instead of talking the talk, I need to do what I preached. One of the best way to do reflection is to pen down my thoughts and review along the way.

Steve Job shared in his 2005 commencement speech at Stanford University about 3 stories of his life.
1) Joining the Dots
2) Love & Loss
3) Death

As I reflect upon these 3 points. I began to see how my life has developed thus far.

For (1), many people have came across my life, but a handful of people who have positively impacted my life which I would like to list them below:
- My secondary accounts teacher, Ms Tan, her tireless work attics
- Boon Aun, my ex colleague in Starhub, a passionate guy & spiritual buddy in my early working years.
- Tizane, my buddy in Uni who brought me to church.
- Eddie, a cell group helper who followed up on me relentlessly when I first came to church
- Andrew Wong, my first cell group leader, one of the wisest & spiritual man I've known
- Pastor Chee Kiang, my first zone Pastor, strong disciplinarian.
- Evelyn, Pastor's wife, great preacher & passionate lady.
- Pastor Aries, my current Pastor, contemporary, passionate & friendly man.
- Johann, my zone supervisor, tremendous servant of God.
- Cannice, my former boss, taught me this if anything money can settle, it's not a problem! ;)
- Pastor Kong, of course don't need to mention much.
- Col Kahar Hassan, my CO, leadership & people management
The list goes on and on..
Of course not forgetting my dear wife & family.

I'm grateful for the things they've done or said which shaped the way I think & lived.
Along the way, there may be a few who have done detrimental things. But I've learnt to forgive and forget. Hence I should not list any of these.

(2), There are many love & loss in my life. Love define as passion, things I would do even I'm not paid for. Just to boast a little of my achievements ;p
1) Cell group ministry - To preach & communicate the WOG in faith.
- 10 years as a cell group leader. Started since 2004 Feb.
2) Snooker & pool - My passion since secondary 1.
- Achievement 3 time SIM champion.
- New Paper after 5, 1st runner up
- NTUC pool champion
- Trained with the National intermediate squad
- Rep Lagoon Billiards for National league Div 1.
- National open 2012 last 32,
- National ranking 2012 last 16
- National Snooker Masters 2013 quarter finalist
3) Singing
- SIM 2004, 2nd runner up

I'm glad to have gone through OCS in 1999 and SOT in 2003.
For my career, I'm also proud to be promoted as a senior manager this year ;)

Some of these passion may have died from point to point and there may be sacrifices as my personal commitments grows. It is a challenge to keep all these alive after so many years!

Lastly (3), I shared below in my previous blog about my near death incident. It's funny that all of us doesn't cherish what we have and do what is important until we are near to our death bed.
Steve Job constantly asked himself. If he has only a short time to live, what would he be doing differently?

I too though this from time to time. My wish is that I can
1) Live a life that is blameless (Not blamelessly perfect) before The Lord.
2) To love my family & give them the best I could.
3) To lived out the purpose God has given me.

The bible says He is the potter, we are the clay. There is still a long journey for me ahead. I do not know my end destination but one thing for sure if I continue to stay faithful to God. I will eventual reach the place my maker has called me to be!









Thursday, December 10, 2009

Power of Pauses!

Recently i was back to my favourite past time hobbies, snooker. I had hung my cue years back as mentioned in my previous blog due to certain reason. However i believed that season has past in my life. Anyway, i started practicing a couple of months back on the average once a week. Initially i was dismayed by the lousy performance in the earlier games. It seemed like i have lost the touch from the standards i used to have previously. After a while, i decided to evalute my games and spend some time in youtube observing some of the top players in action. One of the key critical reason I found which affects my game was the lack of pauses in my delivery stroke. If you are an avid player, you'll know that it is so important to have pauses in every stroke. In a good stroke, there should be 2 pauses and a nice follow through action after the second pause.

After making the changes and of course some practices, my game rose from leaps and bounds. I was making half centuries once in a few game.

Lesson i drew from this which is so relatable to life. Sometimes as we move on in life, we tend to stretch ourselves to the limits by doing a lot of things, going from one place to another. It is almost very difficult to learn how to say no to certain things in the name of wanting to expand our capacity and doing great things in life. However, not knowing that we are all humans and our body is subjected to deteriotion as we grow older in age. This was evidence in some of my peers serving in ministry. I've seen so many of my fellow cgls who started so promisingly, doing so many great things for God, ended burning up after a few years of ministry especially so when they turn 30s, starting to have their family and children. Do they stop loving God anymore? Answer is usually no. Do they still want to serve God. Answer is Yes. However due to physical and spiritual tiredness which results in unfruitfulness in the things they do, wrong thoughts came in and allow themselves to deviate away from their goals and dreams.

Hence in this blog i wanted to hightlight about the power of pauses which might be of help.

Some points about pauses:
1) Pauses does not mean that you are slowing down or ineffective.
2) Pauses allows you to take a breather to recuparate.
3) Pauses allows you to observe things better from a different angle.
4) Pauses helps to realign ourselves back to the original plan we started out with.

Symtoms when you should take a pause:
1) You find that you are complaining all the time.
2) You find that you are stuck at a certain thing for too long.
3) You find that waking up in the morning seemed so tiring.
4) You find that goals & dreams are not enticing you anymore

What to do during your pauses:
1) Stop wanting to get back to your work immediately.
2) Do something you enjoy the most.
3) Sleep and rest well.
4) Sweat it out.
5) Forget about the things that upset you.
6) Pray.
7) Read some lighthearted materials.
8) Set yourself a time to get back in action.

Know that in life is not always a long marathon. But it can be many 100m sprints. There are no hard and fast rules on how many and how long our pauses should be. But the key is that all of us finish the race well.

Monday, November 23, 2009

Worship!

I had the opportunity recently to link up with our church's most senior and anointed worship leader, bro Poh! Bro Poh was invited by Pastor CK to share about worship with the zone adults and i was tasked to coordinate for the session.
This was actually the second time i had to liaise with him for our zone event. The first time was many years back when i helped to organise a maskerade party for the zone at quality hotel. He was the invited guest back then to perform for us. I still remembered at that time i was only a young cg leader, just took on the leadership role. It was my first major event involving nearly 200 people. I was so engrossed in making sure 'my scheduled program' goes as plan running around here and there such that i was totally insensitive to the man of God eventually resulted in him delaying his time by almost an hour! I was given a lesson back then by Pastor Ck which i will never forget till now.

Fortunately this round, everything went smoothly. I communicated a few times with him prior to the session and went the extra mile to make sure everything he needed was taken care of. It was an awesome time with him whereby he shared about developing a worship life.
After the session, he commented that the session was very well coordinated. Phew! Finally redeemed after so many years. (Although not sure whether he still remembers it is the same person that coordinated the event the last time. But I'm glad that i'm able to serve a great man of God =)

Below is a snapshot of a photo taken with him after the session.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Talents!

For the past few days, this word talent keeps popping up from time to time. Tues, i was tasked to lead ice breakers for the zone meeting. I led this game call CK got talents. It's pretty similar to the TV show America got talents. I got a few 'volunteered' contestants to stage and got them to showcase their talents. Some sang, played guitar, dance and one is able to recite the names of 40 Asean countries. Eventually the singer who sang an Andy lau song bagged the winner with the most votes.

On Sat, i happened to see on TV this programme, top earning celebrities couple of the world. Some of the top couples are David & Victoria Beckham, Brad Pitts and Angelina Jolie, Will Smith & Jada Pinkett, Tom cruise & Katie Homes. The top award goes to Beyonce and Jay-Z, a whopping nearly US$100 million in just a year!

To most of us would be thinking, we've worked so hard 9 to 5 each day going through all the stress at work and earn a far cry of just a few thousand dollars each month. How is it that these people just play football, act and sing and they can earn so much more?

The answer lies in how we make use of the talent given to us.

The bible is a very practical book. It teaches us principles of life that if we can apply it. There is endless of possibilities we can achieve in this lifetime.
In Gen 8:22 While the earth remains, seed time and harvest, cold and heat, summer and winter, day and night shall not cease. And in the parables, Jesus also quoted about the Master's instructions for the servants to invest the talents given to them irregardless of whether you have 1, 2 or 5 talents.

What makes all these celebrities rich and famous? I believed what they did right was to pursue their talents, invest it and grab the opportunities when it comes. Of course you might justify some are just born lucky with good looks, natural talents. But it doesn't mean the rest of us are not. I believed if we were to dig deep into understanding who we are and what has God given to us, we will be amazed of what some of the things we can discover. Most of us are made to choose to do a lot of things outside your choice. I've seen some parents sending their child at the age of 4-5 for music classes, dance classes etc wanting their sons or daughters to be so and so in the future. And in school we made choices not based on what we like, probably through peers or societal influence and other factors. I remembered at my Uni days, i was given an opportunity to train snooker/pool with the top coach in Singapore with the rest of the national team. This was something i loved to do and would spend hours and hours of playing and practising. However reality struck, I came to know that our national top players are paid a miserable $5/ hr for their trainings and each day they are only able to claim $15 max each day plus just a small amount of allowance each year. They had to depend on their winnings from tournaments which ranges from hundreds to most a couple of thousands for a local tournament. I was thinking how am i able to survive with this sort of income! That was a huge deterent for me at that time not to pursuing this dream to become a national player. But looking back, perhaps if i were to persist back then, i may have a chance to continue move on beyond the local scene and have a go with the top international players unlike now which now i can only admire them online through youtube.

Things took a turn when i came to know God and i discover another passion. I was greatly inspired by Pastor Kong's weekly messages. I told myself i wanted to be someone like him encouraging and inspiring people through the Word of God. In my second year of coming to church, i enrolled into SOT despite objections from my parent to take up this 10-month course in the midst of my Uni days. Upon graduating, shortly i was given opportunity to lead a cg and now i'm helping to lead a subzone of 160 members.

Although i may not be earning millions now which i hope in the future i would. I'm glad that i'm able to pursue something i'm passionate about. Where will this lead to i do not know exactly. Maybe God will reveal something more to me in time to come.

Are you living your life pursuing your passion today?

Monday, October 5, 2009

Charis 1st year birthday!

In a few days time, 9 Oct, Charis will be turning 1 year! Just last sat, we had a birthday party for our princess at Pasir Ris (Downtown East) chalet. By grace, i'm able to get 2 units side by side at a really cheap rate from my company.

Sat was a very eventful day. Noon time, our cg had organised a visit to an old folks' home at Thomson (Lee Ah Mooi's home). Patricia did a great job in organizing this whole event. I was also heartened that many of our cg mates were involved in this. We had a short but great time interacting with the elderly and singing songs together with them. This is probably the first time for many to step into a old folk's home.

After this Andrea and i rushed off to visit another fellow church mate, Steven's baby shower at Ang mo kio. Seeing baby Zoe reminded Andrea and i how Charis has grown from the time of birth till now!

We left the place shortly and proceed to the chalet venue. I had already checked in the chalet the night before. Upon reaching, Andrea and i quickly get our hands and leg to work on the deco of the place, putting up banners, photos, setting up of projectors etc. In less than an hour, everything has been set up nicely including the catering. Everything seems perfect except one thing. Despite praying, the sky continues to get darker and eventually started to rain heavily. Fortunately for us, all the food are catered indoor and we manage to order quite a number of stools for the people.

My sisters and her kids followed by Andrea's parents are the first to arrived the place. Friends started to arrive in drips and draps thereafter. By 820pm, the place was packed! Michael, who was helping us to get the cake also manage to reach at that time.

At 840pm, we carried Charis to the centre stage. Charis was waiting for this moment. She was so excited to see the beautiful 2 tier, 3kg, lited cake and went wild when the birthday song is sang. The amazing thing is that I notice something happen after the cake was blown. Some tears start to roll down from Charis' cute little face. It wasn't the normal kind of crying. But it was as if telling us how touched she was. My heart almost melted when i saw this. I think she really appreciate what was done for her.

The fellowship continued thereafter. Charis received so much gifts and ang paos that the whole corner of the room was filled with her new toys! One of which was so big that it required 2 men to carry it! I'm sure little Charis is singing in her heart like the praise song 'One day', So bless i can't contain it =)

The day ended later for us. At 11, i had to send my elder sister back to their place and come back again to the chalet. To my surprise, our cg 'newly attached' couple Zhuomin and Michael are still around when i came back. We went for a chat at Mac Donald and fellowship until 1am.

By the time Andrea and i went to bed, we were so tired that we doze off shortly with our dear Charis sleeping in between us.

Really want to thank all the friends, relatives and CG members for their time and generousity to be part of this special day for Charis and the family. (If you happen to be reading this blog.)
Indeed we experienced like what Psalms says, Sure His goodness and mercies shall follow us the days of our lives!

Charis, Mummy and Daddy love you so much! Continue to grow strong and healthy and be a blessing to many in time to come.

Yours
Alvin

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Devotion

Devotion

Finally got a chance to write in my blog again!
Not sure whether it is just me, time seems to go faster as you age. I'm turning 30 this year, still 3 months more to go before i say goodbye to my 20s. I felt that it's good for me to recap and take stock of the blessings that God has given to me thus far.

I came to know the Lord in 2001 Aug, 10 at the age of 21. It has been more than 8 years since i first walked with him. I was very blessed to have good leaders around my life. One of which is none other than Andrew Wong. He's really one of the key reasons that aspire me to lead cgs till this day. I will always remember one of his message which talks about the 3 Ses which represent the 3 kinds to people, Survial, Successful and Significant. In short, we should all aimed to be people of significance. Not just living for ourselves but be a blessing wherever we go.

I have been serving more than 5 years as a cgl now. As i looked back, sometimes it's hard to believed that i've led so many cg meetings. If calculate an average of 40 weeks a year minus away big days where there's no cg. Not forgetting most of the time i'm leading 2 cgs a week. I would have led about 200-300 cell meetings! Think it is really by His grace that i'm able to do what i did. I pray that He'll continue to give me the strength to do so!

In the midst of serving him, i see my life has change for the better. I came from a dysfunctional family in the past whereby i grew up most of the time with one parent. My sisters left home very early after their 'O' levels and stayed at their friends place. I remembered staying with my uncle most of my secondary days envying my cousins who has the love of their father.

My own dad 'came' back when i was in my secondary 3-4s. It has brought temporal happiness but due to the bad habits he acquired in the past, our family once again sinked into darkness. Going to NS is probably one of the best getaway at that time from the home without love. But i realised back then running away will not solve the problem until i found God.

The bible says it very clearly. We love because He first loved us. The only reason I can start loving is that because I've experienced the love from my heavenly father.
In my first year of knowing God, i brought my sister to come to know God. That was in the midst of her broken relationship that gave an opportunity for me to bring Christ into her life. My parents also came to know God within the year. Shortly, restoration begins to take place in my home. Nowadays, we had frequent gathers with my sisters and thier family together at home. At times my dad would also cook some nice dishes for us to eat. This was something that i would never imagine years back.

God is indeed someone who is true to His words. Matt 6:33 When you seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, all these things you need shall be added to you.

I'm eternally grateful to God. I may not be perfect and make mistakes from time to time, but i will always love God wholeheartedly for what He has done for me.

Yours with revival,
Alvin

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

FAITH, HOPE, LOVE

Apostle Paul made this statement in 1 Cor 13:13 Faith, Hope and Love. The greatest of these is Love. God prompted me this question while i was spending time playing with Charis in the bedroom earlier. He asked, "What do you know about Love?"
I began to ponder a while about this question. I thought about a list of things relating to the word love.
1) Love is spending undivided attention with someone
2) Love is meeting someone's need at the expense of ourself
3) Love is wanting to know more about someone
4) Love inspires us to change
5) Love is touch
6) Love is engaging conversations
7) Love is God

What Jesus said about Love
Jesus said to Peter, if you love me feed my sheep.
Love your neighbours as yourself.
Love me with all your heart, mind, soul, strength
I love you with everlasting love.

The list goes on and on...

To be continued...